Back in Year 2009, I was a skinny boy, can't catch any attention of anyone in the eyes

I don't know why, back in year 2009, around November, suddenly just hit my mind and push me to the gym. I was curious with the protein powder, how they work, will it harm my body if i take it, so I asked around together with my sis's friend about protein powder and how it work. So I was introduced by her friend of a brand of nutrition, call GNC. So, I bought a big 1 and started to work out with no guidance in the gym, everything started from 0. I hit the gym nearly everyday, doing the same part everyday, lifting like I'm dam strong in the gym ( I was a fella that are quite like to show off). Here is my picture before I started to gym and everything...please dont laugh ._.

face full with pimple, no confident in myself anytime and everywhere I go.

Some uncle in the gym used to tell me, "don't simply lift the weight like that, it will hurt your back anytime". Obviously, I never really listen to them, I just do what I feel is right, I saw lot of teenager with nice body, showing off their body in gym that time, it is 1 of the reason I keep push myself to go to the gym everyday. With the protein powder I take, after 3 months of training, I can slowly see my chest got some result, I feel quite cool and my brother feel interested with it also, he also slowly go to the gym with me, but not that hardcore. So i try harder, and this is the picture of me after half year of training...approximately...(I never really remember the date when i took all these picture..

can see the shape, because I never take care of my diet, just protein helping me with building up the muscle

During the time, I used to take medicine to control my hormone for my face, and take protein powder at the same time, so my pimple is under control, but after i stop taking the med, my pimple keep coming out again, consult doctor and he advice me that the powder causes it. I remember he told me, "what for you wanna train so big, you want to compete in Mr. Malaysia issit". Im so duhhhhhhh after he said that on my face...About one and half year of protein help, I stop taking it...this is the pic after 2 years of training...It sound very fast right? Well...continue reading, and you will know my story...

This is the picture after i stop protein not long ago, my body was so tonned and all the shape is quite good.

During the year 2012, is my worst year ever, I hurt my wrist, snapp the dam thing during my workout, and I thought is a small matter, went back to the gym to workout after 2 weeks, snap again. Went to consult specialist, he told me that my ligament was torn. Deep depression that time, only go to gym with my Uni friend for treatmill, helping them for their workout, I feel very very down during the time, seeing my body shape getting worst everyday...show you whats the different during that time and the previous picture...

can see my belly stomach coming out? But i think positively, I treat it as my bulking period, I told myself Im gonna push myself dam hard after i fully recover

Once my wrist was fine, I'm back to gym again, I bought 2 big pack of protein powder again, to help me with my workout even though I know its not good for my face, but I just can't wait to build back up my body. I was kinda curious and nervous person, in short, I'm an impatient person. Push so so so hard everyday, and I got injury at my elbow again, I was like CRAP! NOT AGAIN!

I feel like quitting gym since I keep injuring myself, and the feel is so fucking shit seriously. I was wondering, is workout suit me after years of training, I still get injured. I got my wrist, elbow, back of my neck, lower back and both thigh injured. feel like Im really a useless shit.

But then, in year 2013, I do everything slow and steady, slowly build up my strength with help of my brother and friends in gym.

This is the pic I got it after my lower back and both thigh was fully recovered.

These few days, lot of uncles and friends keep praising me, "wow your body is getting nicer, now look great, can go compete with mr muscle already''. I just have my smile and thanks them.

Actually, people might think that Im showing off in gym, but this is how i train in gym, always focus with my workout with earphone in my ear!

Sorry for my long post of my workout life, but I just wanted to share that, the result I get today, doesn't come easily, some people that are younger than me, come across me during the 4 years of my workout life, and they thought I did all it easily, they saw my body, and praise Im good enough, doesnt need so much workout already.

No matter I'm sad, happy or what, I still will step into gym to hit the shit out of the metal. I feel it is a MUST for me in my daily life. So, actually what you are doing in your daily life is what you really like, or it is a daily routine for you? for me, i started gym as my daily routine, and slowly, I get used with it, and i fall in love with it. I used to watch lot of motivation videos by those really muscular guy, their thoughts and their motivation quote. So, do you really like what you doing everyday?

I hope my workout don't just stop right here, I hope to get a better body and of course a healthier body, you might think my body is not that great, and I know it too, so i set myself a target, before Chinese New Year of 2014, I wanted to reach at least 75kgs of body weight with 15% of body fat in my body only!

By setting a target, I will push even harder! to everyone out there to get a better and healthier body condition, feel free to ask me out for a jog or workout together, I really enjoy doing that with friends!

I cried again...ever since i broke up with my ex starting of this year...back to the square one..

^{散落在髮絲間}

^{陽光 輕吻般柔和}

^{思念也靜靜的 吹動風車}

^{那一年的初夏}

^{也是 在這個時刻}

^{轉頭見你的微笑開在左側}

^{有那麼多的銘刻 有那麼多的不捨}

^{卻還未發現}

^{其實淚水不曾乾涸}

^{有那麼多的快樂 有那麼多的苦澀}

^{卻還不懂得 其實我是最又深深的愛著}

^{十年後的我 可還記得}

^{一起笑鬧胡亂哼的那首歌}

^{會不會後悔 有些選擇}

^{一起發現有什麼不見了}

^{十年後的我 可還在這}

^{還會在 掩飾對你的思念嗎}

^{當我又一次 抬起頭時}

^{天空可 還是喜歡的顏色}

^{I have been keeping myself quiet these few days...
but today I got a message from her in facebook,sending me a song which is in chinese version,}

<sup>listened to it, with the lyric on...
I cried again...

Why am I so weak, I thought I can be tough, I would be stronger after times of falling down...but im not...i cant...</sup>

Process of BATMAN-wanna be -.-

While I'm surfing online with my phone in bed some day back in 18th of November 2013, i saw a post that a fella in oversea actually make a 3D batman origami with paper! It makes me feel wow and a thought suddenly hit my mind that I wanna make it for the girl that I feel she mean a lot to me. So, I travel here and there to get the paper with colour to start with my work. At the same thing, Im thinking whether Im stupid enough to make that for her, maybe she wont like it as her favorite character is not batman, so I did some research about ultraman (which she loves it so much), and i noticed that ultraman has only 1 common colour which is grey and it wont bring the art work look so pretty. So i insist with my batman plan and start cutting the A4 paper (because shop are no longer selling ready made origami paper/maybe I cant find it), pieces by pieces i cut it and start folding it.

I started the work since 19th of Nov, after my working hour and gym, once finished dinner everyday then i start to sit on my table to concentrate with the work until 12am or 1am, so everyday when Im back to office, I will be like zombie and fishing xD (better dont get caught by my boss) ><!

Along the work, I found out something about myself. The foundation of the batman body and the head is toughest part for me to do it, i actually get frustrated with it and nearly give up. But i always remember, whatever thing we do in our life, foundation of the thing is the most important. We learn to walk, then run, speak, writing, study, and of course a lot more in our life. Everything should be start with foundation, and we enhance it with better improvement. Same as what Im doing in the art work of batman, if I dont start with the foundation, I will never get the result. So I slowly control myself and continue it.

Apart from that, I also found out that, doing things for the person I really love, is really an enjoyment. I really enjoy the process of cutting the paper, fold it into pieces and put it in slowly to build the shape and come out with the result. Even though it takes quite of my effort and time, I dont feel its a waste. What i feel annoyed is, everyday when my dad come back from work, he see what im doing, he will ask me "you are too free'? continuously for few days, and also my mom and sis keep asking me issit i made that for them. I ignore them (am i too bad?) hahah!

I'm thinking to give this to her as my Christmas present this year, but it is still too far behind, so I decided to give it to her this sunday(which is today), so I rush my work for whole day after my hiking with them on saturday. I sit here, REALLY SIT THERE from 1030am until 630pm, without lunch, only water and toilet visit for few times! I never been so serious even Im studying/revising =/

I think this is after 3 days working on it, I already felt quite happy with it =D

When the head and body is full settled, I stick them together with PVC glue, I remember Im so nervous searching for brush to use for the glue, but I really FAILED to find a brush in my house -.-.....after few minutes of thinking, I think of using cotton butt, and it works quite well. thanks god =D

Cutting out the batman logo, hands and also the cape for batman, and its actually quite late already, my sis and mom keep coming in my room to see my batman and they keep praising my work, I feel very happy and at the same time that I hope she will be that happy and surprise when I give this to her. My sis by putting papers as background, and keep taking pic of it for so dam long -.- She manage to get a few nice shot, yeah thanks you SIS! =p

how you guys think of it? will you feel touch if somebody make this for you? (hahaha syok sendiri) -.-

So on sunday that day, before she going out with her friends, I pass this to her. I dont know what should i tell her about why i make this for her, and she just woke up that time,blurr face of her make me nothing coming out from my mouth. I just hope she would likes it. I really happy that I manage to get this done! ^_^

p/s: so what do you guys think of this batman? does it look like batman? i personally feel its a fat, short with short leg batman >.<

- anyone interested to make one for your love one too, feel free to ask me about the measurement of the body and the head. im willing to help hehe =)

What actually really grinds your ears?

Just have a random thought today when I finished my gym today and walk into the men bathroom, and saw a little kid that just finished his swim and holding a polystyrene thingy that help him to float in the pool. and he start scratching it with his fingers and it really HURT MY DAM EAR ALOT! all my goosebumps come up and i feel annoying with the sound!

So what sound that really irritate you? some hate the sound of using fingernail to scratch the blackboard, the sound of folk and spoon scratch together, or anything you can think of?

I remember when I was young, my dad always bring me and my sis to go swim, and she always do that infront of me! ARGH! until now, im still feel very irritate with it. Talk about when me and my sis were young, we used to fight, and all my relatives say that me and sis would not get along very well once we grown up. But we prove them wrong, we get very well now and we share everything (not really everything), but still we laugh at each other, scolding each other EVERYDAY! remember when she bullied my last time, my only way to defend myself is to pull her hair hard and all her hair being pulled by me! lol. Last time when we were still staying in penang, we will visit to kl and stay in kl for few weeks. That time me and her used to sleep together, and we always cry together because we argue with each other before we going to bed and then sayang each other after that, then hug each other. Whenever we heard the sound of lizard, we were so scared also! seriously very LOL

Alright back to the sound that irritate you! My ex-gf knew that I hate that sound as well, she always do that infront of me whenever she has the chance. So I will always boink her! >=(.

So, what sound that really grinds your ear? dont mind sharing with me so I can kacau (disturb) you next time =P

sorry for my bad english, I never really filter this out because im too busy with some work! CHEERS!~

How people actually see it in different perception?

Well today, I was quite bored some time in my office because my boss is not around and I'm day dreaming about I have been working here for nearly 12 months. When I just came into this work force, I'm kinda afraid that I couldn't make any friends like how I do in my study time while I'm in college or university. Well everyone knows that there are different culture in different workplace, this is what I'm most afraid that I couldn't merge with other colleagues.

At the very first day, I stepped into the office and I feel lot of weird "eyes" looking at me and its kinda annoy me, and all of them give me a feel that I'm not really welcome to join here. So I was placed to sit in the most front where my seat can be see by everyone who walk by, and luckily there is one colleague that is quite kind sitting beside me, his name is Sim and another girl sitting behind him is call Rainie. Well, anything I don't know, I will just ask them as I have no working experience in this field at all. Slowly, I was organised by my boss to field audit with some senior. During the time, they shared lot of things to me, about the work, about the boss, anything that they could just talk. And I found that its not that bad because I can really make friends there.

So after I get quite well along in the office, I have talk and laugh a lot when I'm working. Well, maybe my laughter and my voice is too loud until somebody complain about me. Since I'm a person that like to share my daily things to people around me, at the same time I offended people there because I'm talking too loud(this is what they think, I'm just using my normal tone to communicate with my colleague). I was asked to move once to another side because there is someone leaving the company, I rejected and I thought it will be fine. Few months later, another colleague is leaving and the boss again ask me whether I want to move there. At first, I say no, but he ask me to go into the meeting room and he had a talk with me. (talking all the bull shit and all). So, I just decided to move there (and in my mind, I think that it might be great because I can be independent there).

On the day itself, I feel very down because I have to leave the seat where those close colleague can no longer chit chating during work time. I kept quiet all day (well, I always be quiet whenever i feel moody or sad). But senior around my new place are very nice, all welcome me a lot and talk even more to me. So I feel, instead of staying there, I can make more close friends with other colleagues and also I can be independent (1 stone kill 2 birdies!) =p

Well, everyday after our lunch, I will still walk to my old seat and hang out with colleagues, sometimes they will say something like" ehh, why are you still here, this is your old seat, you shouldn't come here anymore", I know they are just joking, but I still feel sad and feel sour in my heart.

What my thought about today is that, people might resist to change when they are used to something and feel comfortable. But, every changes might not be a bad thing, as we can get to know more things in the new change and also maybe we might found that we get more comfort there? So why do we need to be upset over something that suddenly hit us hard in our life? Well, temporally emo is normal, well every human have feelings, so I rather choose the bright side to look at it and move on. (but sometimes, something I couldn't really do that even though I have the thinking). I always see people quoting "try to put yourself in my shoe", so I have the perception that, what if I have a colleague that is so talkative and disturb me when I'm working, I might get very frustrated as well. Hence, I shouldn't angry at the person who complaint about me, I should thanks the person giving me the chance to enhance on my own work and maybe, I can get better experience and it might be useful in future? lol syok sendiri again.

To finish up my blog today, here is a pic I stole from my friend in instagram =p

Miley Cyrus's wrecking ball is actually singing out her own heart feeling and her life, everyone keep complaining that her video mv sucks and it looks like porn. What if you are in her shoe, can you really take it and control it nicely like how she did it? She is just singing out her own feeling to tell everyone that she has a tough life. Dont judge anyone if you dont know any shit about them!

HIKING IN GUNUNG NUANG- highest mountain in Selangor ( the most extreme thing i ever done in 2013/ maybe in my life)

So currently, I get to know a friend from the girl that has been quite close to me. So, she come up with the idea that to go for a hike in Gunung Nuang, because to train up their stamina for their next year Mount KK hiking. So, I have agree and give it a try together with them as I'm quite like outdoor activity also.

I woke up at 4am in the morning to prepare my breakfast and everything because I know its gonna be like 12hours in the mountain without toilet, food and everything! its gonna be trees, river, animals and blah blah blah....so I leave my house around 445am, and great, first move, and i hit my dam car on another double parked car...thats a great luck isnt it?

There you go, I have been protecting this dam car for almost 3 years, and this happen! GAH!

After fetching all of them, with GPS on and we start our journey to meet the group of people who created this meetup for the hiking. We turned into wrong area as I was confused by the GPS and it add on more pressure on me because if we dont reach on time, the group gonna leave and start their hiking. So i drive faster and luckily we just late for 5 minutes and the group is there discussing and waiting for people who havent arrive. We get our name card once we arrived and all of us start moving to the foothill and park out car there. Everyone get their headlamp ready and the journey is going to start!

Tada! cute right? lol

Me, suyan & jaycee

So, we start our journey with a slightly sloppy hill where it is quite tough for people who doesnt really exercise much! Then jaycee, due to her leg injury, she was left far behind, so only me and suyan walk up together only. after an hour and half, we come to a place call LULU the river LOL and we have to cross come river to continue our journey.

I was quite enjoying because of the weather and of course, walking and spending time with her is really fun *shy*. Along the road, there is no toilet and no food store. I have only settle off my pee pee some where on the plant! And luckily we have brought some food that give us energy!

After few kilometers of hike, we reach Kem Pacat, where hikers can stop and rest for awhile before going up to the peak of Nuang. There are lot of bees flying around, and some bees landed on Suyen's hand and her look is so afraid, I can only keep shoo-ing the bees away so that she wont get sting by the bees.

This is what we call extreme challenge after the Kem Pacat, the road is rocky and dangerous, and also slippery without a good hiking shoes. Both of us taking pic like we are lying down on the ground and take the pic because it is too steep, The feeling for me is like we are doing rock climbing without any safety rope and we have to risk ourself to go up to the peak. The only way is to help each other when going up and also going down. Another 1 and half hour of climbing up after kem pacat, we reached a lower peak called puncak pengasih!

In order to reach the real peak of Nuang, from here we need another 1.5 hour. Due to time constraint, we decided to go back down as weather is getting dark and it look like its gonna rain!

So we try to move as fast as we could to go down, but unfortunately, God really decided to splash some water on us and treat us some teh tarik in the mountain T_T

Look at her, she looks cute in raincoat isnt it?

This is our way back to the bottom, shoes get into all the holes and get dirty, fell down several times and "mud skating" for few times.

"TEH(siok yen) tarik" waterfall LOL

While walking down, i can see that suyen condition is not good, her face is pale and im getting very worried as well. My mind keep thinking what is the fastest way to get down to the hill, should i piggyback her or just carry her like how i carry weight in gym. I tried to talk to her, ask her to eat some food, she looks better so we try to walk slightly faster (actually cant be fast, our foot is like sotong that soft and tired!)

We get lost in the lulu river for maybe 10minutes because there is no sign board to show us which way to back to the starting point, we try to relax and look around and finally we see people and we feel relieve that we get to the right way. After 11hours of 24km hiking, it is really really really struggling when coming down from the top of the hill, and i could say it is the best experience i ever had!

double clap clap clap for her because she can do it together with me in her condition like that!

The skin colour get different because of the foot get soak in the shoe with wet socks for 11hours!

I would definitely try another time to reach the peak! I heard that this mountain is tougher than mount KK! I feel proud of myself as well! Wee!!!