Somehow, I keep confusing myself....
First of all, is work out...
I told my brother few days ago, I felt like im training too much on my body, and it makes me look dam ugly when I take photo with my friends. Do you guys think so too? Should I stop training that hard? But it is my goal to reach a level that I feel is enough. But I have been training for 4 years, I can't stop and I can't control... 1 of my friend told me that, I can concentrate doing something I really like. Yes, I dont deny that, for what I feel is worth for, I will do it..
Love...
Is giving too much love on somebody, will turn out to be a hatred by the person? Yeah maybe love and care is 2 different things, but there is love, we would care more.... Same goes to when we giving too much care, it will turn out love? Duh... I am the person that will care so much on my partner if I have one, love her to bits! But, will I scare her off? I know what is call balancing, somehow, sometimes, I just can't control...
Money?
Do you think have excessive money is good or bad? for me, I would just like to have comfortable life, not much or too little money. Having too much of money bringing us the risk that being kidnap? lol! Having too little of money will bring us lot of trouble as well...but most of the people say that more money is better than less. Well, I do agree with that. We should save our money for emergency period. Like how we always say, prepare an umbrella before rain.
Friends =)
I would like to have more and more friends, because the more friends I have, the more thing I would explore. Like how we communicate with different people, how to behave when facing different people, how we manage our time for each and every friends. Well, I couldn't say that i have lot of friends, but the friends I'm having now, is rather satisfying because all are good friends of mine! well, of course there are some "fubu" (learnt from my friend) which try to take advantage on me! >=l
FOOD!
For sure, food I would like to have lot of it. My mom and my brother used to call me the "rubbish bin" because I wont full after any meal. I will still keep on munching other thing after my proper meal. But of course la, my digestion system is good, so I don't get fat easily (I hope so), and I work fucking hard in gym ok?! =p so if you love food, some gym with me, so you can eat as much as you want heheheeheheheh
Knowledge <.<
Who doesn't want their knowledge to be wide as the sky or like the space?
Living everyday, from the moment i open my eyes from my sleep in the morning, its a brand new day for me to learn something new. While I drive, work, walk, talk, everything I do, I learn something new. For example, maybe the way I drive today is reckless and nearly cause an accident, I might be afraid and learn from it! (choi choi choi)! So I dont mind I get something share by anyone, unless is really rubbish =p
Our life are short, I always don't know what would happen on me tomorrow. Or maybe when I was asleep. Maybe I cant even wake up from my sleep tonight...well, to every friends of mine, I really love you all. Maybe the way I show it, might be different. Whatever things I have done that made you angry, I seek for apologize from you! Its gonna be a brand new year, lets forget about the past story, and start a new one aight?! ^_^
Monday, 30 December 2013
Sunday, 22 December 2013
What does your mama used to tell you the "lame" lies when you were young?
So do you guys remember what your mama used to tell you in order to make you scared or trying to avoid you to do something when you were young?
Yes, my mom did. Plenty of it.
1.) Don't you ever keep laughing at night, or else you gonna get a very bad nightmare until you can't sleep.
- So mama, is it real?! I used to laugh a lot with my friends during tea season and I never have bad nightmare!
2.) Don't you ever go out and walk alone in the dark, or else "indian bad guy" gonna come and catch you and sell you to others!
- ow my gosh! this is the most scariest thing when I was a child. Back then, me and my cousin just stay 1 door away from each other, we like to play together but I always can't get down to the playground and play with them because I'm afraid of the "bad indian" guy. Mama, you are soooooo racist back then la!
3.) NEVER RUN OR JUMP AROUND AFTER EATING! I doubt that every mom will that you that you will get appendix if you do hardcore activities after your meal right? Even until now, there is still such bad bad information spreading around! WRONG! My sis is a doctor, everyone got appendix, it will only inflame if you are bad luck, so everyone has the chance to get it and have to take it out. But not jumping or running around after eating. Well, even it is scientific proof that, I'm still afraid and don't really dare to move around after eating. =x
4.) Finish up every single "rice" on your plate or else you gonna get an ugly wife full with pimples on her face!
yeah MOM....I should have polish up my plate back then because the pimples never grow on my wife face, but is on my face...I'm really sad of that XD
5.) This 1 is out of topic, I used to watch tom n jerry with my sis. And there is 1 episode saying tom chasing jerry and suddenly hit by a cupboard and it dies. Then it fly up to the heaven and met some angel saying that Tom must do something nice to jerry or else he will go to hell. It was the most scariest episode i ever watch and my sis told me that, if you tell lies in life, you gonna go to hell as well... So I was so afraid to go to hell because the tom n jerry show shows me that hell is so scary and everything is in red color, fire burning place!
I was a very coward kid last time, my dad told me that I'm even afraid of a tree leaves moving because of the strong wind and I will cry the hell out of there. Do I really look so coward? I tent to be very good boy at home, do and don't do whatever my parents told me to. Maybe because of that, I'm lack of exploration in everything.
My University friends have cheated in their exam during their secondary school, even skip their class in normal day. But, I never did any of it before. When they talk about it, how they cheat and laugh there, I have nothing to share. Is this good or bad? No matter how tired am I, I will still wake up every morning to go to school. Never even giving any excuse, I just don't know why. Maybe I'm really a coward.
Do you guys have any lies that told by your mom when you were young? You can share it with me by comment in my post. I just can't think of any of it right now, but I will update it once I have it. Cheers guys! =D
Yes, my mom did. Plenty of it.
1.) Don't you ever keep laughing at night, or else you gonna get a very bad nightmare until you can't sleep.
- So mama, is it real?! I used to laugh a lot with my friends during tea season and I never have bad nightmare!
2.) Don't you ever go out and walk alone in the dark, or else "indian bad guy" gonna come and catch you and sell you to others!
- ow my gosh! this is the most scariest thing when I was a child. Back then, me and my cousin just stay 1 door away from each other, we like to play together but I always can't get down to the playground and play with them because I'm afraid of the "bad indian" guy. Mama, you are soooooo racist back then la!
3.) NEVER RUN OR JUMP AROUND AFTER EATING! I doubt that every mom will that you that you will get appendix if you do hardcore activities after your meal right? Even until now, there is still such bad bad information spreading around! WRONG! My sis is a doctor, everyone got appendix, it will only inflame if you are bad luck, so everyone has the chance to get it and have to take it out. But not jumping or running around after eating. Well, even it is scientific proof that, I'm still afraid and don't really dare to move around after eating. =x
4.) Finish up every single "rice" on your plate or else you gonna get an ugly wife full with pimples on her face!
yeah MOM....I should have polish up my plate back then because the pimples never grow on my wife face, but is on my face...I'm really sad of that XD
5.) This 1 is out of topic, I used to watch tom n jerry with my sis. And there is 1 episode saying tom chasing jerry and suddenly hit by a cupboard and it dies. Then it fly up to the heaven and met some angel saying that Tom must do something nice to jerry or else he will go to hell. It was the most scariest episode i ever watch and my sis told me that, if you tell lies in life, you gonna go to hell as well... So I was so afraid to go to hell because the tom n jerry show shows me that hell is so scary and everything is in red color, fire burning place!
I was a very coward kid last time, my dad told me that I'm even afraid of a tree leaves moving because of the strong wind and I will cry the hell out of there. Do I really look so coward? I tent to be very good boy at home, do and don't do whatever my parents told me to. Maybe because of that, I'm lack of exploration in everything.
My University friends have cheated in their exam during their secondary school, even skip their class in normal day. But, I never did any of it before. When they talk about it, how they cheat and laugh there, I have nothing to share. Is this good or bad? No matter how tired am I, I will still wake up every morning to go to school. Never even giving any excuse, I just don't know why. Maybe I'm really a coward.
Do you guys have any lies that told by your mom when you were young? You can share it with me by comment in my post. I just can't think of any of it right now, but I will update it once I have it. Cheers guys! =D
Thursday, 19 December 2013
We choose the tough life, not the tough life choose us. Dont swine here and there like an attention seeker.
I remember my mom used to told me when me and my brother were young, she said "if you don't study hard now, you can't earn big money, can't work like daddy that earn so much money". And I feel very annoy when she started to say all these again and again every time with the same story.
I just realized, if we really never study hard, without the knowledge, without the cert, who gonna hire us in the workplace? how do we survive in the society? So this linked to my topic, we choose what we want, not the things come to us and we force to accept it. I have some close friends in my life, one of them has a girlfriend, which we all feel she is not really a good girlfriend, same as my friend, he might not be a good boyfriend. Every time see they argue, then the girl will be drama queen post some shit shoutout in facebook to seek for attention, or will come and talk to me and trash talk about her boyfriend. Is this really you want? If you hate him that much, why dont just leave him? Dont you feel tired of such life? repeating the same shit again and again and put people who are not related involved in. Get a life man seriously.
I have this thought in my mind as the tough life never choose us. So what for I want to live in a life that is so unhappy? keep on making myself down, stressing over something that is not worth stress for. People who dont appreciate us, they will just leave us in our life. So we do. Friends come and go, we can choose which to let them stay longer in our life, some are just using us as they can get benefit from us, this is what we call 'fuck buddy'. Hell yeah. I have plenty of them.
Back to the title, that linked to my studies of my professional paper, I know degree are very common now on the street. Any finger we point at, there is a degree holder on the street fighting for the work vacancy with us. Hence, is this really I should just stop here with my degree cert? I dont think so, I might feel easy and free if I dont take the paper, but what about another 20 years later? With that much of experience, but with so many junior come out with their professional cert, they can easily climb up on me.
Few days ago I went out to do audit with my senior, he has been working in my firm for almost 10 years. He has lot of things that he shared with me, about life, work. I have asked him some question about study as well, he has the same thinking, accountants are getting more and more nowadays, so what if we have a degree cert. He says after he got his professional body cert, he go on with another course which is related to accounting, that is tax consultant, this makes him a little bit special compare with other accountants. He told me that, he doesnt want others to drag his life, as he says if he leave his company, at least he is still special and wouldnt die out there.
Know what you do, dont regret with it, because you choose it.
I just realized, if we really never study hard, without the knowledge, without the cert, who gonna hire us in the workplace? how do we survive in the society? So this linked to my topic, we choose what we want, not the things come to us and we force to accept it. I have some close friends in my life, one of them has a girlfriend, which we all feel she is not really a good girlfriend, same as my friend, he might not be a good boyfriend. Every time see they argue, then the girl will be drama queen post some shit shoutout in facebook to seek for attention, or will come and talk to me and trash talk about her boyfriend. Is this really you want? If you hate him that much, why dont just leave him? Dont you feel tired of such life? repeating the same shit again and again and put people who are not related involved in. Get a life man seriously.
I have this thought in my mind as the tough life never choose us. So what for I want to live in a life that is so unhappy? keep on making myself down, stressing over something that is not worth stress for. People who dont appreciate us, they will just leave us in our life. So we do. Friends come and go, we can choose which to let them stay longer in our life, some are just using us as they can get benefit from us, this is what we call 'fuck buddy'. Hell yeah. I have plenty of them.
Back to the title, that linked to my studies of my professional paper, I know degree are very common now on the street. Any finger we point at, there is a degree holder on the street fighting for the work vacancy with us. Hence, is this really I should just stop here with my degree cert? I dont think so, I might feel easy and free if I dont take the paper, but what about another 20 years later? With that much of experience, but with so many junior come out with their professional cert, they can easily climb up on me.
Few days ago I went out to do audit with my senior, he has been working in my firm for almost 10 years. He has lot of things that he shared with me, about life, work. I have asked him some question about study as well, he has the same thinking, accountants are getting more and more nowadays, so what if we have a degree cert. He says after he got his professional body cert, he go on with another course which is related to accounting, that is tax consultant, this makes him a little bit special compare with other accountants. He told me that, he doesnt want others to drag his life, as he says if he leave his company, at least he is still special and wouldnt die out there.
Know what you do, dont regret with it, because you choose it.
Friday, 13 December 2013
A special Post for you...Just for you...
Its nearly a year we broke up...a 4 years relationship is not a easy path for both of us, sweet, spicy, sour...every flavor we tasted while we held each other hand and walk together...
Remember 5 years ago, we knew each other in an online game call maple story, we were just friends and share feeling and have fun in the game together with some other friends. We never met each other in real life, but the game brought us into the gaming life like a real world we can really stay inside the game for very long...I remember you were the one come near me, talked to me, and stay close to me...from that moment onward, we get closer and planned to meet each other when you coming down to KL to further your studies...
Our first met was in Midvalley, I remember you were a chubby girl, which have no confident at all. But I don't mind at all, I held your hand and hug you when we first met, you were not feeling well that day as well, your family went to shopping and left you alone in the hotel to rest. I bring you to meet my sis, mom and my bro to have dinner together. But you were too shy to eat, and wanted to buy pretzel to eat instead.
Along the 4 years, we love, we fight, we argue, we cried, we do almost everything together...but sometimes distance, my emotion, my childish thought make our relationship runs down. But we manage to save it, carried on with laughter, love each other even more...You have taught me to be a better person, a person with better manners, to control my emotion, feeling...and many more...
I remember I was the one get very excited with the monthsarry, not to celebrate, but just spend the whole day together, no matter doing what, just by your side, I would feel very happy. Do you even remember what we always fight for? What we laugh for? What we talked? Well, flipping the pictures of us in my laptop, just bring up lot of memories of us...
Sometimes places I go, the song i listen, the things I do or even some people I saw on the road that look like you, you just come across my mind...Not saying that I can't let go of you, but you were used to be so important to me. Whatever I do, You will just come before anything. About future, about studies...I will put you on the first place...
I might not be anyone for you right now, you never reply my message when I sent you one. You have found your new love, I just really hope he will treat you better than I do, love you even more than I do...
Even though you won't see this post, but I just wanted to tell you that, sometimes I miss you. Miss your smile, your kiss, your hugs, your cuddle...just everything...no matter you see this post after a year, 5 years, 10 years or maybe after 20 years...I hope you will always remember me, the one that love and care for you so much, even the time I have sacrificed for you, just to see your smile...Promise me, you are really a good girl. Don't hurt the other guy like how you did it to me...It is hard to let go a person that I really love...it took me nearly a year just to let you go in my heart...I hope he will be the one and only one, to be with you forever...
Remember 5 years ago, we knew each other in an online game call maple story, we were just friends and share feeling and have fun in the game together with some other friends. We never met each other in real life, but the game brought us into the gaming life like a real world we can really stay inside the game for very long...I remember you were the one come near me, talked to me, and stay close to me...from that moment onward, we get closer and planned to meet each other when you coming down to KL to further your studies...
Our first met was in Midvalley, I remember you were a chubby girl, which have no confident at all. But I don't mind at all, I held your hand and hug you when we first met, you were not feeling well that day as well, your family went to shopping and left you alone in the hotel to rest. I bring you to meet my sis, mom and my bro to have dinner together. But you were too shy to eat, and wanted to buy pretzel to eat instead.
Along the 4 years, we love, we fight, we argue, we cried, we do almost everything together...but sometimes distance, my emotion, my childish thought make our relationship runs down. But we manage to save it, carried on with laughter, love each other even more...You have taught me to be a better person, a person with better manners, to control my emotion, feeling...and many more...
I remember I was the one get very excited with the monthsarry, not to celebrate, but just spend the whole day together, no matter doing what, just by your side, I would feel very happy. Do you even remember what we always fight for? What we laugh for? What we talked? Well, flipping the pictures of us in my laptop, just bring up lot of memories of us...
Sometimes places I go, the song i listen, the things I do or even some people I saw on the road that look like you, you just come across my mind...Not saying that I can't let go of you, but you were used to be so important to me. Whatever I do, You will just come before anything. About future, about studies...I will put you on the first place...
I might not be anyone for you right now, you never reply my message when I sent you one. You have found your new love, I just really hope he will treat you better than I do, love you even more than I do...
Even though you won't see this post, but I just wanted to tell you that, sometimes I miss you. Miss your smile, your kiss, your hugs, your cuddle...just everything...no matter you see this post after a year, 5 years, 10 years or maybe after 20 years...I hope you will always remember me, the one that love and care for you so much, even the time I have sacrificed for you, just to see your smile...Promise me, you are really a good girl. Don't hurt the other guy like how you did it to me...It is hard to let go a person that I really love...it took me nearly a year just to let you go in my heart...I hope he will be the one and only one, to be with you forever...
I still cry everytime I play this video, the song you play for me in piano...
You were such a lovely girl...
Enclose this post with the pictures that I took with you for our last celebration of your monthsarry that near 4 years...
Saturday, 7 December 2013
Longest talk with someone that I don't really close with me
Obviously, I'm seriously down after I got my result for my CPA (Professional paper) after the second try. I failed again.... Lot of things came into my mind, sitting alone in my place in office, storming whether I should continue with this paper, whether I should find someone to talk to, whether I should stop, and more and more things come in again, time, money, effort.....
I messaged to some friends that I really close to, some ask me don't give up, just try again...
Some asked me whether I'm really into accounting path...
Some asked me stop without a second thinking...
My head just gonna crack after having all the feedback....I just don't know how to tell my parents...my family..I feel so shame....They might think that I never work hard enough for something so important, but do they really know how much effort I had put in?
So I decided to talk to my boss, my younger boss, his name is Alvin ( I used to call him Alvin and the chipmunks among my colleagues - because he is short and cute hahaha, not really cute though).
I have sent him email to ask whether he is free after working hour, he replied with yes and he is very happy to do so...
After working hours and everyone has left the office, I just take a chair and sit beside him...just tell him I got my result, fail, feel very down, don't know what should I do after this...
He just started to talk with me, asking whether the study method I'm using is correct, strategies when I'm doing my exam...and he start telling me how he did his CPA paper last time as well...
So come to a point that I ask him is CPA holder really important in society today. He gave me 2 example...
1. working in small-medium firm like what I'm in, experience is totally more important than education, he told me that a senior that is working in my firm for nearly 20 years has no qualification, but he says that senior meant a lot to the firm, because of her experience.
2. working in commercial line, education is important. Lets say you have so so so so much experience in audit field, you get out from the firm and go to commercial line, with your experience, when there is promotion, people who has the qualification definitely will beat your ass up. BECAUSE YOUR EXPERIENCE WOULD NOT APPRECIATE BY OTHERS IN OUTSIDE WORLD. When this came out from his mouth, it seriously hit me dam hard.
He said that, "if I tell you education is not important, I am lying to you". He says CPA is expensive, but you can earn your money back. He told me that come to some point, someone out there will surely appreciate your knowledge and give you a good offer. He says im still very very very young, I can try again again and again...
I felt that what my boss told me is right, the world out there is materialistic. I shouldn't give up on a thing that failed me twice so easily. I will work harder for it. Set my strategies when I'm going for exam, study smart!
Thanks Alvin!
I messaged to some friends that I really close to, some ask me don't give up, just try again...
Some asked me whether I'm really into accounting path...
Some asked me stop without a second thinking...
My head just gonna crack after having all the feedback....I just don't know how to tell my parents...my family..I feel so shame....They might think that I never work hard enough for something so important, but do they really know how much effort I had put in?
So I decided to talk to my boss, my younger boss, his name is Alvin ( I used to call him Alvin and the chipmunks among my colleagues - because he is short and cute hahaha, not really cute though).
I have sent him email to ask whether he is free after working hour, he replied with yes and he is very happy to do so...
After working hours and everyone has left the office, I just take a chair and sit beside him...just tell him I got my result, fail, feel very down, don't know what should I do after this...
He just started to talk with me, asking whether the study method I'm using is correct, strategies when I'm doing my exam...and he start telling me how he did his CPA paper last time as well...
So come to a point that I ask him is CPA holder really important in society today. He gave me 2 example...
1. working in small-medium firm like what I'm in, experience is totally more important than education, he told me that a senior that is working in my firm for nearly 20 years has no qualification, but he says that senior meant a lot to the firm, because of her experience.
2. working in commercial line, education is important. Lets say you have so so so so much experience in audit field, you get out from the firm and go to commercial line, with your experience, when there is promotion, people who has the qualification definitely will beat your ass up. BECAUSE YOUR EXPERIENCE WOULD NOT APPRECIATE BY OTHERS IN OUTSIDE WORLD. When this came out from his mouth, it seriously hit me dam hard.
He said that, "if I tell you education is not important, I am lying to you". He says CPA is expensive, but you can earn your money back. He told me that come to some point, someone out there will surely appreciate your knowledge and give you a good offer. He says im still very very very young, I can try again again and again...
I felt that what my boss told me is right, the world out there is materialistic. I shouldn't give up on a thing that failed me twice so easily. I will work harder for it. Set my strategies when I'm going for exam, study smart!
Thanks Alvin!
Sunday, 1 December 2013
When someone that meant nothing to you just crash everyone happiness
Yesterday was my best buddy, KC graduation convo, his family and his girlfriend were there very early for his preparation and me and my another close buddy, Kit with his girl went for lunch before going to his school.
We were all happy, snapping pictures after his graduation speech, taking picture while we walking, snapping picture with all the flowers that his girlfriend bought for him, I can see everyone has their smile on their face. Of course, my friend has lost his mother since he was young, I can see his father was proud and happy with his son with the square hat on.
Ok, I know Kit and his girlfriend surely will be get frustrated with this fella because they are the 1 queuing for all of us. So, his girlfriend started to throwing angry word with the fella. I just keep calm myself down as I know I will be very angry if i started to talk. I just ask the fella to chill out, everyone is waiting, and we are not cutting queue as well. He never listen, and keep trashing on me. Since then, my temperature is getting high. So I just tell him to behave like one graduated student, he then say 'ok ok ok, just go just go, take your picture'. So I chill everyone out but Kit's girlfriend still scolding, I ask everyone to sit nicely and take picture for them. While I'm leaving, I say tell him "this is what TARC student and Im thinking to throw more trash, but I'm afraid I will hurt somebody with my word. So I just say "shame on you".
We were all happy, snapping pictures after his graduation speech, taking picture while we walking, snapping picture with all the flowers that his girlfriend bought for him, I can see everyone has their smile on their face. Of course, my friend has lost his mother since he was young, I can see his father was proud and happy with his son with the square hat on.
When we reach a spot, there is lot of people queuing to wait for the spot to take picture as shown in the 3rd picture, instead of wasting time to queue up together there, so I ask Kit and his girlfriend to queue up first and I help kc to snap some pictures with his family around the place. So, after 10 - 15 minutes of waiting, its our turn so everyone of us just go to the place to take our turn to take the picture. Then, SUDDENLY, so fella that he think he outsmart everyone shout at us (he is the one behind us in our queue with his family), he just shout at us with "oi, do you know how to queue? the line is at the back, not here, please go queue up, do you have the eye to see where is the queue?!".
Ok, I know Kit and his girlfriend surely will be get frustrated with this fella because they are the 1 queuing for all of us. So, his girlfriend started to throwing angry word with the fella. I just keep calm myself down as I know I will be very angry if i started to talk. I just ask the fella to chill out, everyone is waiting, and we are not cutting queue as well. He never listen, and keep trashing on me. Since then, my temperature is getting high. So I just tell him to behave like one graduated student, he then say 'ok ok ok, just go just go, take your picture'. So I chill everyone out but Kit's girlfriend still scolding, I ask everyone to sit nicely and take picture for them. While I'm leaving, I say tell him "this is what TARC student and Im thinking to throw more trash, but I'm afraid I will hurt somebody with my word. So I just say "shame on you".
After approximately 20minutes, we are leaving the place, the fella saw me and come near to me with his hand on my shoulder saying, ''bro bro, I'm sorry for the misunderstanding just now, you dont talk, you let me talk''. So I just let him finish his word and I just forgive him with a hand shake.
For me, if you are a person scold me for no reason, I definitely wouldnt give a face for you. I hate people accuse me for nothing and act like you are dam smart among everyone. I hope my friend and his family emotion doesnt get affected by the fella. Afterall, all the pictures I snap for them are quite nice. I dont really appear in all the pictures as I'm the camera man on that day.
Last but not least, HAPPY GRADUATION KC MY BRADA!
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