At the very first day, I stepped into the office and I feel lot of weird "eyes" looking at me and its kinda annoy me, and all of them give me a feel that I'm not really welcome to join here. So I was placed to sit in the most front where my seat can be see by everyone who walk by, and luckily there is one colleague that is quite kind sitting beside me, his name is Sim and another girl sitting behind him is call Rainie. Well, anything I don't know, I will just ask them as I have no working experience in this field at all. Slowly, I was organised by my boss to field audit with some senior. During the time, they shared lot of things to me, about the work, about the boss, anything that they could just talk. And I found that its not that bad because I can really make friends there.
So after I get quite well along in the office, I have talk and laugh a lot when I'm working. Well, maybe my laughter and my voice is too loud until somebody complain about me. Since I'm a person that like to share my daily things to people around me, at the same time I offended people there because I'm talking too loud(this is what they think, I'm just using my normal tone to communicate with my colleague). I was asked to move once to another side because there is someone leaving the company, I rejected and I thought it will be fine. Few months later, another colleague is leaving and the boss again ask me whether I want to move there. At first, I say no, but he ask me to go into the meeting room and he had a talk with me. (talking all the bull shit and all). So, I just decided to move there (and in my mind, I think that it might be great because I can be independent there).
On the day itself, I feel very down because I have to leave the seat where those close colleague can no longer chit chating during work time. I kept quiet all day (well, I always be quiet whenever i feel moody or sad). But senior around my new place are very nice, all welcome me a lot and talk even more to me. So I feel, instead of staying there, I can make more close friends with other colleagues and also I can be independent (1 stone kill 2 birdies!) =p
Well, everyday after our lunch, I will still walk to my old seat and hang out with colleagues, sometimes they will say something like" ehh, why are you still here, this is your old seat, you shouldn't come here anymore", I know they are just joking, but I still feel sad and feel sour in my heart.
What my thought about today is that, people might resist to change when they are used to something and feel comfortable. But, every changes might not be a bad thing, as we can get to know more things in the new change and also maybe we might found that we get more comfort there? So why do we need to be upset over something that suddenly hit us hard in our life? Well, temporally emo is normal, well every human have feelings, so I rather choose the bright side to look at it and move on. (but sometimes, something I couldn't really do that even though I have the thinking). I always see people quoting "try to put yourself in my shoe", so I have the perception that, what if I have a colleague that is so talkative and disturb me when I'm working, I might get very frustrated as well. Hence, I shouldn't angry at the person who complaint about me, I should thanks the person giving me the chance to enhance on my own work and maybe, I can get better experience and it might be useful in future? lol syok sendiri again.
To finish up my blog today, here is a pic I stole from my friend in instagram =p
Miley Cyrus's wrecking ball is actually singing out her own heart feeling and her life, everyone keep complaining that her video mv sucks and it looks like porn. What if you are in her shoe, can you really take it and control it nicely like how she did it? She is just singing out her own feeling to tell everyone that she has a tough life. Dont judge anyone if you dont know any shit about them!
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