Around starting of September in 2013, my wisdom tooth try to be bad to me. And I have to do a minor surgery to take it out, and everything just happen like a blink of eye. I get it done, post up pictures about my swollen face like normal people do, and a girl that is from my secondary school (which we never really talk much since last time) comment on the photo i posted up. Since then, we started to talk a lot, and text each other everyday like cant live without each other lol. Time passes, along the time, we sent sweet messages to each other, hang out few times and buy gifts to each other. Slowly, we got feeling towards each other. But, there are some barriers in between, so I should have say this thing doesnt come in the right time, we are struggling whether we should start the relationship or not. As it might be too fast to be together because we both dont know each other that well, and afraid that it is a wrong start.
So, do you think that, both person should start without knowing each other well, or just get into the relationship, and start knowing each other?
For me, my previous 4 years relationship, which is the longest relationship i ever in, I get into the relationship without really knowing her well. Yeah, we met online, and it is quite a fashion that people meeting online, and start dating each other out. So, in the 4 years, I found out there are something I'm really looking for in her, she doesnt has it. I tried so hard to change myself to try to get along better for both of us, but it fail. I feel that I dont really have power in the relationship, its like everything I have to let her win and "okay okay" for everything she wanted to do. So in the end, i put too much trust on her, and it is a wrong move...this is how it ended. Should I blame myself for doing that? It is a question for myself in the past few months, she is now with a guy and I can see they are happy and so.
So yeah, after 9 months of time that I took to recover myself, I finally found this year that I have mentioned just now. I thought that she will be the right one, the process is like very fast and in the rush. We went movie, some exercise, sports, try some restaurants that we both never try before. Even it is just a short period of time, it really stuck and stay in my head so strong and I really think about it every day and night. About a month plus near to 2 months of the process, we talked about it and we get together. But, after few days she told me that she felt it is not right and lot of drama i feel, and we were off....Im so stunned and I really dont know what can i do, its like i just woke up from my sleep and everything just gone again...
Everyday I have the same question running around my mind, " should I stop contacting her or should I dont give up so easily". Seriously, it just keep running running and running in my mind. Until today, its still the same. I really dont know what is best for me to do....As I'm a person that dont give up a thing so easily, I hope what im doing now, its not a wrong move for me...
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